Depression.

I have been so depressed here lately. To be real I am not happy with my marriage. My husband got drunk the other night and while I was driving tried to wreck the car by grabbing the wheel 3 times no our child wasn't in the car while this hapened. I did the smart thing and left him. I love him but not like I used to. Maybe it’s only because we have a kid together that I still have feelings about him or maybe one day he will change. He has agreed to go to a Christian based rehab to work on our marriage and stay with me but how can I get over this. I have so much emotional pain from him. Over the years there has been drug abuse, alcohol abuse, and emotional abuse. I am grateful that he hasn’t hit me but sometimes I think it would have been less painful. When he lost his job I did everything supporting our little family and he had the nerve to call me the “B” word. That word just sends me off the wall. To be in most recent events he got in trouble for being at someone’s house and now has conspiracy charges. Maybe this could be my easy way out, but where I still have love for him I don’t want to leave him all alone while he is in jail or prison for however long he is sentenced. I am at such a crossroads.